Virginia Brown, 2016 Graduate & 2017 Intern
Meggie Martins, 2016 Graduate & 2017 Intern
It was day one of the longest year ever; at least that's what it felt like to us, when our marriage hit an all-time low. The pain we felt was so real you couldn't sleep it off. You couldn't just take a nap to ease our mind from wandering or your heart from aching or even tears from falling. As a leader in our home i failed as a husband. I let my wife down, my children; i let down the church but most of all i let down the LORD. I was a church leader in worship before my sin found me out. I knew this was the end of my marriage. "This is it!" "I really had done it this time!" I saw myself getting a divorce, losing my children, falling away from GOD because "He did this to me"; at least that was my warped reasoning then.
I often wished i was addicted to other things at that time such as drugs, pills, or alcohol. Something that is often visible to the public because then at least i know i couldn't hide it, it's in plain sight. How do you know someone drank alcohol? How do you know someone used drugs? It's the physical appearance of those addictions that tells people what state they are in. But no not this drug. Not this addiction. This was lust, pornography, and sexual temptation that altered my way of thinking.
And it was something i battle for years on my own. It was that same drug that hardened my heart towards the Lord. I was backslidden and heading for my eternal damnation. I was embarrassed because i was exposed of my sinful behavior by the pastors of the church and family members of the body. I was caught red handed in text messaging another woman outside my marriage. I allowed for this to happen when i compromised my covenant with my wife and the Lord. And as that same compromise took place day after day my sin grew to the point of no self-control, only what i thought i could get away with . I was going to lose everything GOD blessed me with and i needed help.
That was when we were introduced to the Christian Counseling & Training Center. My wife felt like she didn't need to go because this was my wrong doing, and as hard as it was for her, she attended counseling as well as classes offered through the training center. It was the hardest thing we had to do, the longest hour we had to bare but we grinded it out. We prayed with our counselors, they heard every word we spoke, they incorporated sound doctrine with every lesson, every step of the way and they challenged us. During that time it was hard to see the good that was coming forth, the good that God was turning around what satan tried to destroy. All we knew, was we wanted to save this marriage.
We were young parents in desperate need of real friends that can help us walk through the process of redemption. The same process that often feels like "the longest year ever", ended up being the best thing that could have happened to us and our family. To God, be the Glory! Thank you so much fro saving another family!
Biblical Problem Solving student testimony
When i started "Biblical Problem Solving" (BPS), i was 8 years sober, through the grace of GOD. I am truly grateful for AA and the 12 Steps but the program is very careful in not discussing the Bible or Jesus Christ. The BPS course and the amazing instructor provided Bible scripture which, for me, supports/backs up the 12 Steps and that has been awesome, to understand and see where the 12 Steps originated.
Also, at the time of the class, i was in the process of retiring from a career/job that i had held for 35 years. I had so much anxiety, would we have enough money, what would i do with my time, and how could the business possibly be successful without me?
It's pretty amazing that in 8 weeks i have begun to work on a new way of thinking, a new way of reacting to fear, anxiety and anger all through God's word.
I can't wait to start the next class and then the next one... i know GOD will open a door and lead me where he wants me to go... if its' working with women and addictions... how great would that be? I'll wait for His Will.